Hi Everyone! :) 

Week 12

11 weeks: Baby is the size of a fig

Your baby is now about as big as a fig. (Length: just over 1 1/2 inches, head
to bottom.)

How far along? 11 weeks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss?  +5lbs 
Maternity clothes?  I have busted out my maternity pants and some shirts. The pants are way to big, but are more comfortable. Best to take advantage of it! 
Stretch marks? None, thank goodness.  
Sleep?  Taking unisom and b6 at night helps me sleep through the night AND prevents me from barfing in the morning! 
Best moment last week? Seeing my baby again! 
Movement?  I Nothing as of yet....
Food cravings? Let's see: Indian food and....honey combs cereal. I did buy pickles because they sounded good. :) 
Gender? Still a BUG! 
Labor signs? Nothing! 
Belly button in/out? In. 
What I miss: Feeling human and not wanting to barf when i sit down to dinner. This evening sickness is OLD. 
What I am looking forward to: Finding out what we are having!!! 
Milestones: Going to Vegas this week! :) Babymoon! 

Here we go again!

Believe it or not...we are pregnant! On our own...no help....On 11/24/12, (the day after Thanksgiving...) I took a pregnancy test. I took it because I realized only then that I was 5 days late! The morning went something like this.
P: Did you start your period?
B: No...I think I was supposed to start Wednesday. Last month I was 5 days late, so I'm not really concerned. I'll go pee on a stick though.
P: OK.
I walk to the bathroom, pee on the stick...and HOLY CRAP...there are 2 lines! I start shaking and say:
"Umm honey...I think you need to come in here..."

I think we were in total shock for a few minutes. (or a few days!!!)

 The frist beta that I had drawn was 2737. Then it was 6738 3 days later. This means we are really having a baby! We go for our first ultrasound on 12/13. I'm still skeptical just because this all seems unreal to me! We are very blessed that's for sure! 

Update:

We went for our Ultra sound on 12/13/12 and we have a BUG! :) (Baby of unidentified Gender)! The heartrate was 154 and the baby is due August 1st! :) I'm still keeping my posts in draft form, and will go public, as soon as we tell our families. :) So, if you are reading this, I'm still blogging, but I've been waiting to go public. 


12/21/12
I've been experiencing some of the WORST nausea! I have been sick all day long...well not throwing up, but i sure do feel like it!  I've started the b6/unisom trick, and that seems to be helping. We head back to the GYM for our next ultra sound on the 28th ( A great 32nd birthday present to me!)

I've also been doing some thinking. Just about how God work in funny ways. I remember the day we got the call that we only had one viable embryo through the IVF process. I was devastated. I thought to myself, what if we can't get pregnant again. What if we have to go through the IVF process all over gain? But now  almost 2 years later, here we are pregnant...on our own. And I'm almost thankful that we only had one embryo. What if we had another one frozen? What would we have done? Would we have chosen to have the baby? I guess I'm lucky we don't have to have that conversation and we are able to enjoy the pregnancy with baby #2. :)

12/28/12

We went for our 2nd ultrasound! Baby is doing GREAT! The little peanut is already measuring a week ahead of schedule! :) He was happy because I had eaten a muffin just before I went in. :) The hearrate was measuring at 177! 

5 day tease

I thought maybe this month we had got it on our own. The OPK didn't work right, my temps were all wacky and I seriously wanted to throw it all in the garbage. It's really not fun to do the BD when you are peeing on sticks and having that dictate to you when to ... well do it.

So, Saturday came and went...no AF. Then Sunday ..Monday, Tuesday..still NOTHING..I peed on two PT but got the BFN. I thought...well, maybe it's too early to tell. But alas, Thursday morning came, and there she appeared, in full fiery force. It's weird because I don't get cramps anymore and I really didn't feel much of anything.

Here's to hoping we get lucky on our own...it sure is less expensive!!!! :)

Two steps back...

After my sonohystogram, I thought "maybe this will be our month" after everything was cleared out. But, we ended up with AF last week. I was heartbroken because I thought we might have had this one on our own. So, I went to get all the medication and stuff lined up, and in the process we decided we couldn't do it right now. Our lives are just not in the place we were when we were trying for our first. So we decided to get the medication filled (which btw the way is WRONG and they gave me 5 viles of each....I don't know how that is supposed to work when the one drug requires 4 viles a day..so I'm off to figure that out tomorrow...) Anywho, we are going to possibly try an IUI in January, and if that doesn't work, we'll explore IVF in the summer months when school is not in session and I'm not bound to a strict 8-3 schedule. 

So, two steps back, but in the mean time we are going to enjoy our perfect little family. 

It's like we never left....

We went for out consult and have decided to move forward with more treatment. Patrick and I have opted to do the sonohystagram (this THURSDAY!) and then move forward with and IUI with injectable drugs in October. If that doesn't work, then we will talk about IVF in January.

It was an eerie feeling getting the scripts and the bloodwork paperwork. Part of me had flashbacks as if we just did it yesterday. It's funny how everything floods back to you, including the emotions of wanting another baby. I came home and kissed my beautiful girl on the head and rocked her to sleep with tears streaming down my face because I realized just how lucky we are and that our journey ended in such a miracle the first time.

Here's the the next journey and hoping our footsteps lead us down a similar path....

Starting again

So, AF showed up this morning again, which I had a hunch based on dropping temps and cramping yesterday. I'm glad my body has returned to normal cycles, 26 days on the dot!

DH and I discussed our next plan of action. We are both in agreement that if my tubes are truly blocked, that we are going to possibly skip the IUI and head right back to IVF. We won't be able to do this until January in order to get our HRA money. What it does mean, it talking to the RE, getting her opinion, and just jumping in feet first.

I know some people will say "Try Naturally. So many people I know did IVF and then got pregnant with their second on their own."  DH and I want to believe that this too would be our fate, but medical facts of my tubes being full of scar tissues is hard to ignore. We will continue to try until after the first of the year.

I know some other folks might think "You have one beautiful healthy baby. Isn't that enough?" My DD is the most wonderful gift God could have ever blessed us with. I will NEVER take her for granted, but there is this piece of me, our family, that just seems incomplete in some regard. It's hard to express to those who have not walked this journey or who get pregnant if they sneeze. While our family is perfect now, we still have the desire to make it grow. It's not necessarily selfish, but just a hope and dream we continue to have.

So, Monday I call the RE. I'm going to go back on my quest to lose some weight, gain some muscle and take care of myself better than I have been.

Here's to the journey to the next addition to our little family. :)