7 DPO...and waiting

Well, This month's IUI has been a bit of fun... My OPK decided to go off over Labor day weekend. It in turn got me scolded by the nurse from the Dr's office on Friday. YES, she scolded me. It still kind of irks me that she did. I mean seriously? I wanted to yell through the phone "IF I DIDN'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS, TRUST ME, I WOULDN'T CHOOSE IT!" She was upset because I waited until Friday to call, and in the meantime Patrick had inquired to the lab about being open over the weekend. The lab had called Dr. K's office about the OTHER  couple and mentioned that Patrick had called. I actually had to APOLOGIZE to that nurse for being busy and having a life! Grr...but getting past that, we lucked out because the DR had another couple to work with in the office on Sunday, so we got our IUI without much worry. It was different having the DR do it. She seemed to take her time, which the nurse didn't do last time. In addition, the tech at the lab gave Patrick some encouraging words on Sunday. She was the total opposite of the cranky nurse. It was comforting to hear those words and the encouragement after the distress we had been feeling. She told us not to lose hope!

So now we wait...I've made it a week!! YAY! Luckily, I've been working, which has been a complete blessing, because I don't find myself going slowly crazy at home. Yesterday, I spent the day with my good friend and some college friends at her baby shower. It was soooooooooo good to see that good things can come to those who wait. She passed along some "Good Luck" which made me cry. It seems like I've been doing that alot...wanting to cry. Weird...that and hot flashes. My temp this morning was 98.1...the highest its ever been. I've been leaning on my other friend going through the similar process! I'm lucky she has BBIM for me to chat with during my days when I'm at my breaking point..or when I just need a friendly shoulder to listen! Plus, my family has been amazing.

I've made it 7 days...it seems like I lose hope right around here...I don't know why. I mean, I shouldn't right? We have 7 more days until I SHOULD test....that doesn't mean that curiosity won't get the best of my DH and I before then....

Well, here's to another week. Let's hope that my kiddos (who have been COMPLETE ANGELS!!) keep me on my toes and my mind off of the baby train.

Decidely done...

So, I've decided that I'm not letting this whole IUI process stop my life. The husband and I got into a bit of a tiff about it. The meter went to two bars today...which means ovulation is around the corner. Which, on any given weekend, etc, wouldn't be a problem...but it's a holiday weekend...and the doctor's office isn't open on Sunday and Monday...and possibly Saturday. So I guess we will be doing some investigating on whether or not the lab that we go to will be around on the holidays. I'm really not excited about the possibility of someone other than the doctor's office all up in my business, but I'm also not about to waste a month of medication to no couple it with the IUI. I'm done basing my life around all of this...it'll happen when it'll happen...freaking out about the "what ifs" really isn't going to get me or the hubby anywhere but a ticket to anxietyville.

ANYWHO, being back at school has been a big blessing because I can concentrate my energies on that and not sit at home worrying about the whole infertility issues.

Talking about it really has helped me get through the rough days. I know people avoid asking about it, but really, I will say "I don't want to talk about it" if I am not int he mood or can't deal with it at that particular time.

I was joking with the girls at work, because the principal asked to bring in an "artifact" that represented our summers. I wanted to bring in a pee stick and a thermometer! Really, that has represented a good portion of my summer....;) It made me laugh out loud since people were supposed to guess what the artifact meant. Needless to say I ended up bringing in the picture of buzz light year from our astronaut experience from NASA. That was a little less controversial and personal. ;)

Here's to a great 2010-2011 school year! Something to keep my mind off of my personal issues!

No such luck....

Looks like we are on to month number two of an IUI. I won't lie, I was extremely disappointed and hearbroken when I started yesterday. I felt a bit broken....I know, I'm not, and that things will happen, but it just seems slightly unfair at times. So, here's to hoping next month is a better chance for us! :) I'm going to keep my chin up, and go forth with a happy heart knowing that I am surrounded by wonderful and supportive family and friends.

Hopeless?

Stoney Creek Metro Park- a little bit of heaven on earth!

So, today I'm feeling a bit hopeless, and that this 2 week waiting period feels like EONS!! With my cycles, I could start on day 25 (and I'm on day 23 right now...) or go as long as day 29. So far....my BBT has stayed elevated, which is a good thing. I've been having some mild cramping, but it comes and goes. Some of which feels like AF is going to be knocking on my door, but I guess we'll see. My emotions go up and down. I go from,  wow, I really could be pregnant, to "Nope, this couldn't have worked on the first try...". I don't know why today I am feeling not so optimistic. I went and rollerbladed 6 miles this morning at one of my most favoritest places, Stoney Creek. As I rollerbladed around, I took the time to Thank God and send out loving energy to all things created so beautifully. The sun was out, there was this cool gentle breeze, and the overall beauty of nature was awe inspiring. It made me realize that I have spent many miles rollerblading around that park thinking (or not thinking) about my life. Of course with my IPOD providing the soundtrack. Today, it was playing all my christian rock music from 7th and 8th grade. I think in some funny way, it was telling me that I am not alone on this journey and that I need to believe and place my faith into a higher being. That being said, I think it was telling me too, that I should be so VERY thankful for all the support that I have been given.

As I take baby steps through this journey, I realize, more and more, that I am not alone. There are so many women out there that have or are facing similar journeys. It reminds me that the human spirit is resilient and that we need to form a sisterhood (or family) to pick us up from the bad days and celebrate the good ones!

On that note, I am going to continue taking baby steps on my 2ww (2 week wait) journey...

And....we wait....

Well, Today was the big IUI day! Nothing to crazy to report. Patrick and I had a lovely breakfast this morning...very low key.We went in at 9:15 and left at 10:00 from the doctor's office. Apparently I was the first patient that wanted to put my pants back on while I laid there for 20 mins after the procedure. Umm...it's cold..and I really don't think a paper cloth is going to cut it! I think all those years of dance and marching band experience made it easy to put clothes on while laying down! hahah! OH and a freind of mine told me to go to my happy place during the procedure which consisted of houses made of brownies! So, I that's what I did, thought of brownie houses and did my yoga breathing! :)

I didn't sleep last night. I think partly because of the nerves and excitement. I don't usually deal with change very well...ok I don't deal with change very well. AT ALL. I like the normalcy that life brings and the routines that are set up. I know that having a baby with change all of that, and moreover I will have a little person dependent on me. I know my husband as well, but it just seems like a whole lot! I always ask myself, why bring a child into a world with such hate, violence, and uncertainty, but then I look at my mom and dad and realize they probably had the same fears and concerns. And I have to say, they did a GREAT job raising me, because I think I turned out pretty normal. So while I am ready to start my family, my nerves are getting the best of me! It was a good thin I had the opportunity to go clean at our rental house, because it really helps reduce my stress levels! That bathtub never looked so sparkly!! :) hee hee..
So here we are, playing the waiting game. Please pray that this works. Little miracles and baby steps...

8 9 10

Today is 8-9-10....and our stick FINALLY has a happy face! So tomorrow is the big day....and then the waiting game continues again! :) So day 15 proved to be the big day! I can tell that I have been on meds, because my abdomen feels bloated with a lot of pressure. I'm sure that it'll go away, but I can definitely tell my body is not "itself".

This weekend was filled with lots of laughter! I spent it with my family since it was my Aunt and Uncle's 40th Anniversary. It really is good for the soul to spend time with your family. When it comes down to it, they are what you have!

Here's to the baby steps tomorrow!

Waiting....

Still waiting for that positive "Happy" face....getting up at 6 AM is FUN! At least Tanner gets to go out potty too!!

So....the waiting continues. :)