Starting again

So, AF showed up this morning again, which I had a hunch based on dropping temps and cramping yesterday. I'm glad my body has returned to normal cycles, 26 days on the dot!

DH and I discussed our next plan of action. We are both in agreement that if my tubes are truly blocked, that we are going to possibly skip the IUI and head right back to IVF. We won't be able to do this until January in order to get our HRA money. What it does mean, it talking to the RE, getting her opinion, and just jumping in feet first.

I know some people will say "Try Naturally. So many people I know did IVF and then got pregnant with their second on their own."  DH and I want to believe that this too would be our fate, but medical facts of my tubes being full of scar tissues is hard to ignore. We will continue to try until after the first of the year.

I know some other folks might think "You have one beautiful healthy baby. Isn't that enough?" My DD is the most wonderful gift God could have ever blessed us with. I will NEVER take her for granted, but there is this piece of me, our family, that just seems incomplete in some regard. It's hard to express to those who have not walked this journey or who get pregnant if they sneeze. While our family is perfect now, we still have the desire to make it grow. It's not necessarily selfish, but just a hope and dream we continue to have.

So, Monday I call the RE. I'm going to go back on my quest to lose some weight, gain some muscle and take care of myself better than I have been.

Here's to the journey to the next addition to our little family. :)

New Course of Action

I've decided to contact my RE and let her know that we have started trying. Part of me gets this panicked feeling like we are running out of time, but I know that we have a good window to have another baby. I know that having a baby naturally COULD happen, but knowing the damage to my tubes and how wacky my hormones are, I best get started now, rather than wasting precious time. I love my little girl more than life itself, but I know there is one more little one out there to complete our family. So tomorrow I will make the call to figure out the next steps in our journey.